HAPPY SOLSTICE!!!!

its officially summer, and i just wanted to send all you my best wishes for summer! have fire tonight loves ^_^

so on monday i brought a quiche to work for lunch right? and i put it in the freezer to keep it cold till lunch and till i could cook it, well i go back at lunch and its not in there! i ask around and no one has seen it, but i find the wrapper by the microwave and my grandma comes around and is like "was that yours?". long story short, my grandma stole my lunch.... it kinda sucked cuz all i had left was a avocado. Its okay though ^_^

saw S the other day, it was fun, but we didnt do much. oh well, i got to see her before she left so that was nice ^_^

i payed a vist to Her Majesty today, and found some beautiful yellow iris by the canal. now that i think about it, i dont think that any of you know Her Majesty... this is kinda embarrassing.... she was this hawk that we found dead by the house one winter... i buried her and every now and vist every now and then... i try and bring something nice every time i go by. ^_^ its peaceful there... and i feel kinda connected... i guess thats weird, being connected to a dead bird, but i like her a lot so meh.

a friend of mine's friend from childhood died a few days ago... he is really broken up. and i dont really know what to do about it. i have just been talking to him and trying to listen. its hard to convey to him how i felt when Jeremy died. (my cousin to all of you who dont know)its still hard to think about it, but i kinda accepted it... and moved on and it made me... better... i have been thinking about how my mom told my little bro that Jeremy is gone, she told me that he cried himself to sleep. i kinda feel bad for the little guy, and myself if that makes sense. (i always have this thing where i feel like i am a bad sister...) anywho, back to death. i used to think about death a lot, mostly mine or people that i disliked... but i have lately been thinking that it really isnt good for you to do that. it wastes energy that could be spent on life. hating i have also found is really detrimental. (thats for you a) its best to let go. and love ^_^ "Love is all you need"

normally i wouldnt say this kinda thing in here, i would put it in my myspace blog, but... whatever... i dunno... here it is ^_^ :P

PS i hope that none of you are brought down by this, it is not my intention at all.